We all keep things we don’t need. Many of us use the excuse that we ‘collect’ things. Often these are things that bring us joy, comfort or even just remind us of a time, place or person that made us happy. I’ve written before about cleansing ourselves of old, worn out thought processes and behaviors that no longer serve us because we have healed from the need for these processes and behaviors. But often there is a deeper issue.
Somtimes we are carrying thought processes and behaviors we aren’t even aware of. Thoughts, feelings and behaviors which aren’t attached to any wound and were never part of our self preservation mechanics. These processes and behaviors are so benign we often don’t even realize we have them. Which sometimes this is okay. I’m not overly concerned about the fact that when I’m feeling meloncholy I eat french toast, or that pumpkin pie makes me smile on those crisp fall days. But while working through some things I had some old feelings surface which I didn’t realize I had. For me this was about a time in my life when I was associated with people in a certain profession (no worries, it was a legitimate profession). I hung out with them and even identified with them to a certain degree even though I didn’t actually work with them. In allowing these memories to surface, I realized how truly bored I was back then. These people were kind to me and we did have fun together, but my life was very boring then.
When I examined how much I’ve changed, I found that while I’m no longer friends with these people, I still had some of those feelings from when I hung out with them. But now in comparing my life today with my life thirty years ago, it hit home that those years were only stepping stones to now. There were no wounds, no drama, fears or worries back then, so the feelings were quite harmless. Yet, when I let them go, released them back to Source to be neutralized, I felt much lighter, and like I had made room for other, better, emotions.
We are such complicated creatures and we have so many layers of emotions, thoughts, and behaviors even releasing the smallest twinge will make room for better, healthier, and happier.